Monday check in! 

Heart center ✔️. 

Mindset ✔️. 

Scanning everything from your crown to the tips of your toes. 

We will get through this.  I think for the first time many of us are feeling the same thing. 

Uncertainty.  Bringing up a lot of what ifs. Bringing up a lot of questions, concern, fear, time and also clarity. 

A shift is happening. 

When we come out on the other side of this we have a choice to make.  We can all be healthier, focused, READY, more determined, more compassionate than ever. 

The most eager we’ve ever been to experience new heights and live a full unapologetic life. Free of judgment, fear. Adaptable to change. Having a new depth of gratitude and understanding was the vision all along.  Many of us were already on the same wave length when we said 2020 would be the year of clarity. 

Perfect vision.  Right?!  

And since things seem very blurry for many of us right now. Maybe that’s how we’ll truly see and SHIFT our focus to what truly matters. 

Many of us probably wouldn’t have shifted  or made necessary changes if we had not been forced to. So here it is. We’ve been presented an opportunity, more idle time, to stop and switch some things up in order to see more clearly. In order to come out of this better, agile and more flexible than ever before. 

What better version of yourself are you looking forward to becoming? How are you positioning yourself to use this time to recreate, to shift, to focus, to rest and be restored when this is all over, cause a new beginning once we come out of this will be required of many of us.  

If we come out of this exactly the same we’ve missed the mark. 

#EmpoweredbyCathy #afitsoulrevolution

“The sacredness and realization that “there is a breathe of life within my womb”. I wish I could’ve just skipped to this feeling. But it’s so much more powerful that I got through the stages.”

— Cathleen Benjamin

To my mommas maybe this may resonate with you. 

When I found out I was pregnant with Baby Moon 🌙 I went through stages what I call the 3 S’s. I went from being scared, to secretly knowing I had a blessing inside me, to understanding my blessing and holding it extremely sacred.  

S:1

If you’ve been following me I had a scare back in September. I had an unusual pain in my abdomen area. Had an event that morning and throughout the event kept noticing the pain get stronger and stronger. At one moment my husband looked my way and I put my head down cause I wanted him to continue his workout but next thing I knew he said let’s go we’re going to the ER. Something on my face must’ve gave it away. At this point I could barely walk to the car. Thought maybe it was something with my uterus. I knew eventually I wanted more children but something in me said this is it not going to happen. I thought all the worst thoughts and just kept crying on the way to the hospital in excruciating pain. That silent cry with tears just flowing. That day I never shared this with anyone except Kurt but spirit was w/ me. A healing mantra come to me and I silently repeated it with tears in my eyes. I felt an image in a white robe following me to the X-ray room as they wheeled me away from Kurt. They said it was kidney stones. To this day I never passed the stone. 

End of January I found out I was pregnant. I was like no way! There is no way. Immediately started freaking out frozen in fear. Like are we ready? We have so many “plans”. We just sold our condo and just moved. Physically I was immobilized. I had no motivation. Completely stopped doing anything business wise, no posts, no checkins w/ my team, friends. Everything stopped. Went in complete panic mode when no one was around. I stayed in bed for hrs crying, overthinking. I felt like I was walking on eggs shells in the beginning. The anxiety about carrying to term, about being ready (than) or again or oh shoot I prayed for this months ago, now I have this what do I do now set it and didn’t allow me to fully embody and enjoy the moment. The revelation that once again I’ve been blessed. I had my pastor pray for and over me because I was losing it. He said all the right things and that has kept me carried me through all the scary what if thoughts.  I had a talk with myself to snap the heck out of it. Than it took me back to that time in September and said God Im surrendering all my fears. Thank you 🙏🏾 

S:2 

Culturally being of Haitian descent you don’t share before the 2nd trimester. Which is technically the “safe zone” I waited until about 13/14wks because I wanted to enjoy this and hold it now that I was finding my groove again. My fears subsided. I was excited. I wanted to just hold this for me Kurt our kids and family. My favorite reaction was wow. As I was (am) wowed daily by the wonders, the grace, the miracle of carrying Baby Moon 🌙 wondering what is to come and til this day just wowed by how blessed we are because this was actually a manifestation. 

S:3 

The third “S” is magical. The sacredness and realization that “there is a breathe of life within my womb”. I wish I could’ve just skipped to this feeling. But it’s so much more powerful that I got through the stages. I have been put on an assignment to eat, drink, sleep take care of myself, my mind, my body prayerfully carrying to term another beautiful creation of God. In all its miraculousness, in all the great wonders of the world I have been granted the beautiful duty to add more light into this world.  I couldn’t be more happy, broke wide open yet guarded at the same time. What gift and assignment could be greater, more challenging, more rewarding than this. Jesus I can’t wait to hold Baby Moon 🌙

#EmpoweredbyCathy

📸: Kurt Benjamin

My daily routine consists of morning prayer, devotionals and being still before rising and than starting my day and I’ll be honest I drifted a bit, as I do many a days when I am connecting. In this prayer, I professed surrendering it all.  Like all of it.  Let’s be honest sometimes it’s just more than we can handle.

I than received a text message from one someone who I call my spiritual sister whom I’ve been thinking about reaching out to lately but for some reason it hasn’t happened but she’s been on my mind and I’d send Light her way anytime Id think of her. It was a text from her saying the spirit came to her, my name came up and she had sent a prayer up for me 🙏🏾 but what grabbed me in her note and prayer for me the word surrender was there. 

Later that morning as I went to burn some sage I pulled a card from my Universe Has Your Back, by Gabrielle Bernstein deck as I was getting ready to do a quick meditation and this card pictured was the one I picked or picked me. I immediately text my spiritual sister and we were both moved by it.  When you know, you know. It always astonishes you no matter how much you already believe. When the spirit is sending a message to you it will stop at nothing to make it crystal clear what is needed. You have to be open and paying attention i order to receive. 

My meditation afterwards was MIND BLOWING. Like I can’t even talk about it. LOL

I didn’t know if I wanted to share this but I know there are people who are struggling, people who are searching and looking for answers, for solutions for a way out of no way. I can’t stress enough how so many things have shifted, like mountains (whether it was people “in the way of”, things, situations, finances) moved in my favor because of fasting, deep prayer, being still, not giving up (because faith without works is dead), asking the universe, God, The Most High for what I want and if it be thy will be done. Meditating doesn’t have to be long even for 5 mins a day, journaling, getting clear of what you want, writing it down, believing it’s possible and going for it!! Sometimes drifting away even from the ones you love for a moment to reconnect and align with your center, your core has been transformative because that’s what’s needed to clear out the noise. 

Friends don’t stop seeking, aligning, asking, and doing the work. It’s not a one shot deal. 

Today I read if you don’t do anything else talk to God, Allah, universe. Some of the other things you like dare I say yoga, eating clean, exercising daily, drinking more water are not enough.  I’m here for the #fitsouls, not just the fit bodies, but for fit minds, fit spirits that reflect our highest selves.  Yesterday was reminder, a confirmation.  I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t advise you to do some reflection on what it is you believe you are called to do.  The BIG stuff, the scary stuff.  Your purpose awaits you. People are looking for their purpose when your purpose is waiting on you to activate that light inside of you. #surrendering is your compass.