This chapter is all about diving deeper. Its led me to deciding love is all I want to offer. I’ve fought. I’ve defended. Ive offended. I’ve accumulated things and titles. I’ve denied myself and others of the highest level of love because love was a struggle. Love has been complicated. It has been a lot of red. It took me so many years, and hurts to realize love is not red hot but a cool shade of blue. Thank you Jada Pinkett Smith for this #gentlereminder 

For those who don’t know cause I never want to assume. I have been on this self love, wellness spiritual journey for some time now. I didn’t realize it’s been all my life. I thought this started about 12yrs ago before I had my son Axis. But recently I’ve been reminded that when you’ve felt unloved and have had to fight for nearly everything you have you begin to have this woe is me mentality and think fighting is part of love. Being confrontational and comparing pain is love. 

You begin thinking love through trauma is love and normalize it. But when get a taste of LOVE and it’s warmth or cooling off when that’s what you need you’re like oh shit I’ve had it all wrong. 

Like too many conditions. Too many restrictions. Can’t make mistakes. 

Referring back to my previous post about seeing oneself with the way God sees me/us. When you start looking at everything like that it’s totally blue and not red hot. 

Source has blessed me immensely. 

Self awareness can only be found from source energy. No matter how much you try to find it in relationships, friendships, in our children, our careers or things. 

Love is a journey. 

Love is letting someone just be who they are. Letting them find their way like you’re finding yours. Self love is saying what is me choosing this type of love say about me.

We’re all still learning and healing through a hurt, maybe a childhood trauma, learning and for those who choose to go deeper (daily) have choosing to recognize the depth and layers of our ego. 

You/WE are not the exception. We’re not special. Laying the sword down is crucial. Especially for my fighters. Or the wait let me explain type of person. Not defending. Not commanding or forcing. 

When you are seeking certain levels in understanding, in life conflict with present itself. It’s here to teach. Life is about learning. I’m learning it’s about accepting, it’s about being intentional and mindfully making choices. 

So much to learn. So much to let go off and unpack. And only one source to surrender to. And the right answer is always LOVE. 

Some questions that keep coming up for me and I’d love your feedback on is how has your definition of love impacted how you love and who you show up to be? 

What is it now teaching you? 

Carrying Baby Moon 🌙 was so surreal. I felt the most beautiful and empowered carrying this little light. She’s a such a little goddess and today I was reminded that the light inside of me that carried her doesn’t just leave once we give birth 🌟

Im smiling in this pic because my beautiful belly and the admiration I have for the human body.  So how can I repay my body for taking such good care of me and housing such a light?   This is what I asked myself and last week I got real clear with myself.  And one thing I’ve been doing is taking inventory on what I’m doing with my idle time and making sure it’s not emotional eating.  This quarantine will do that to the best of us!  

Now is a great time to fast, detox and cleanse to reboot our systems for added clarity and immune boosting, and yes weight loss.   Also to feel great, less lethargic and tired and so we’re not running on empty. It’s time to be honest with yourself. Acknowledge that you need to improve and make that commitment to yourself.  We all do. 

Many of us just want things to go back to what they use to pre #covid19 pre #quarantine and pre #stayhome.  But what does that actually do for people who weren’t really going to the gym, but now they miss it, weren’t really taking care of themselves now they miss the idea of it, weren’t really checking inward before?  Let’s start now. If you could change the changeable RIGHT NOW? Start with that. Why not start with your health, your nutrition, your movement? WHY NOT?! 

How can you help yourself “feel better” despite what’s going on in the world you can make better choices.  These days many of us are still not finding the drive or energy to do anything extra because we’re homeschooling, parenting, working whether as as essential worker #thankyou or from home. Many things right now will rob you of your energy especially because the global vibration right now is low. 

So how can we combat this low vibration? One number thing you can do for you and your family is while you’re drinking the sea moss, making teas, steams next time you go grocery shopping, get as much produce as you can.  Get fruits, vegetables, both frozen and fresh.  Healthy carbs. Lean proteins. Coconut, avocado or olive oils instead of vegetable/corn. Eat for your health.  Feed your spirit as well. 

My girls in my Fit Camp are working harder than ever to lead from the front in order to show and guide YOU during this time to give new ideas, recipes new and healthier alternatives to get through this season healthy and thriving.  

So join us!! Link in Bio or Email to join 

#EmpoweredbyCathy #afitsoulrevolution 

I am not where I want to be. I realize I’m right where I need to be get to where I’m headed. 

This is the first time I’ve been able to jump and twist without feeling “uneasy” about it. 

This is some of the things they don’t really explain in great detail to moms about your  postpartum journey, post cesarean section delivery.  

Mentally it wasn’t until the last minute  down to hrs before when I finally came to terms that I wasn’t going to be able to naturally deliver or push Baby Moon 🌙.  She was transverse breech so even my DR was hopeful that we’d do a sonogram and shed magically fall into birthing position. 

I wasn’t knowledgeable about the timeline as to when my body would be “back to normal” to be honest I don’t know when or if it ever will be but I shrieked today while exercising celebrating the fact I did some of these moves with ease. No “separation” feeling. No discomfort. May be too much info for some.  But my c-sections mommas know what I’m talking about. No weirdness or total disconnection with your top and bottom part of your body.  

I don’t take it for granted that I waited until I was fully ready to begin these workouts.  Baby Moon 🌙 is 6months. I was not by any means ready at 8 weeks post surgery to do any of these movements.  Not mentally, not physically. I know sometimes you can see others on the same journey coping a lot better, faster. You feel like you’re behind in your own journey. You’re not. You’re right where you need to be. 

Ladies, repeat after me. 

I am in touch with myself mind body and spirit.

I am in tune with my body from head to toe.

I am getting stronger each day. 

I am proud of myself and how far I’ve come. 

I am healing.

I am progressing. 

I am in total alignment with my body. 

I am healthy. 

I am committed and invested in my wellness journey. 

I am experiencing ease and great strength each day I move my body. 

#EmpoweredbyCathy 

Monday check in! 

Heart center ✔️. 

Mindset ✔️. 

Scanning everything from your crown to the tips of your toes. 

We will get through this.  I think for the first time many of us are feeling the same thing. 

Uncertainty.  Bringing up a lot of what ifs. Bringing up a lot of questions, concern, fear, time and also clarity. 

A shift is happening. 

When we come out on the other side of this we have a choice to make.  We can all be healthier, focused, READY, more determined, more compassionate than ever. 

The most eager we’ve ever been to experience new heights and live a full unapologetic life. Free of judgment, fear. Adaptable to change. Having a new depth of gratitude and understanding was the vision all along.  Many of us were already on the same wave length when we said 2020 would be the year of clarity. 

Perfect vision.  Right?!  

And since things seem very blurry for many of us right now. Maybe that’s how we’ll truly see and SHIFT our focus to what truly matters. 

Many of us probably wouldn’t have shifted  or made necessary changes if we had not been forced to. So here it is. We’ve been presented an opportunity, more idle time, to stop and switch some things up in order to see more clearly. In order to come out of this better, agile and more flexible than ever before. 

What better version of yourself are you looking forward to becoming? How are you positioning yourself to use this time to recreate, to shift, to focus, to rest and be restored when this is all over, cause a new beginning once we come out of this will be required of many of us.  

If we come out of this exactly the same we’ve missed the mark. 

#EmpoweredbyCathy #afitsoulrevolution