I am not where I want to be. I realize I’m right where I need to be get to where I’m headed. 

This is the first time I’ve been able to jump and twist without feeling “uneasy” about it. 

This is some of the things they don’t really explain in great detail to moms about your  postpartum journey, post cesarean section delivery.  

Mentally it wasn’t until the last minute  down to hrs before when I finally came to terms that I wasn’t going to be able to naturally deliver or push Baby Moon 🌙.  She was transverse breech so even my DR was hopeful that we’d do a sonogram and shed magically fall into birthing position. 

I wasn’t knowledgeable about the timeline as to when my body would be “back to normal” to be honest I don’t know when or if it ever will be but I shrieked today while exercising celebrating the fact I did some of these moves with ease. No “separation” feeling. No discomfort. May be too much info for some.  But my c-sections mommas know what I’m talking about. No weirdness or total disconnection with your top and bottom part of your body.  

I don’t take it for granted that I waited until I was fully ready to begin these workouts.  Baby Moon 🌙 is 6months. I was not by any means ready at 8 weeks post surgery to do any of these movements.  Not mentally, not physically. I know sometimes you can see others on the same journey coping a lot better, faster. You feel like you’re behind in your own journey. You’re not. You’re right where you need to be. 

Ladies, repeat after me. 

I am in touch with myself mind body and spirit.

I am in tune with my body from head to toe.

I am getting stronger each day. 

I am proud of myself and how far I’ve come. 

I am healing.

I am progressing. 

I am in total alignment with my body. 

I am healthy. 

I am committed and invested in my wellness journey. 

I am experiencing ease and great strength each day I move my body. 

#EmpoweredbyCathy 

Monday check in! 

Heart center ✔️. 

Mindset ✔️. 

Scanning everything from your crown to the tips of your toes. 

We will get through this.  I think for the first time many of us are feeling the same thing. 

Uncertainty.  Bringing up a lot of what ifs. Bringing up a lot of questions, concern, fear, time and also clarity. 

A shift is happening. 

When we come out on the other side of this we have a choice to make.  We can all be healthier, focused, READY, more determined, more compassionate than ever. 

The most eager we’ve ever been to experience new heights and live a full unapologetic life. Free of judgment, fear. Adaptable to change. Having a new depth of gratitude and understanding was the vision all along.  Many of us were already on the same wave length when we said 2020 would be the year of clarity. 

Perfect vision.  Right?!  

And since things seem very blurry for many of us right now. Maybe that’s how we’ll truly see and SHIFT our focus to what truly matters. 

Many of us probably wouldn’t have shifted  or made necessary changes if we had not been forced to. So here it is. We’ve been presented an opportunity, more idle time, to stop and switch some things up in order to see more clearly. In order to come out of this better, agile and more flexible than ever before. 

What better version of yourself are you looking forward to becoming? How are you positioning yourself to use this time to recreate, to shift, to focus, to rest and be restored when this is all over, cause a new beginning once we come out of this will be required of many of us.  

If we come out of this exactly the same we’ve missed the mark. 

#EmpoweredbyCathy #afitsoulrevolution

Honestly I thought the first video I’d post of my daughter Journee would be one of immaculate lighting so you can see how intricately laid her edges are and how gorgeous her light and spirit is but I just catch these moments whenever they happen. Unrehearsed most times I’m in another room and hear her and see she’s with her baby sister. Or her baby as she calls her.  

All I can do is thank God. That’s all I can do. I was attempting to clean up the house. Folding laundry (still not done) Answering business emails. Been in my workout clothes hoped to get a workout in..hasn’t happened yet. Repotting my plants (cause that brings me joy even though I don’t know what I’m doing) and Aria☀️ was having a fit just crying. Journee literally walked through the door, changed her clothes (cause we don’t do the outside clothes business in this house 😂)  and picks her up and just sings her to soothe and calm her.  I was wiping down the counters and grabbed my phone to capture this. It was too good.  Blessed beyond belief. Blessed beyond these mom tears. 

Having a teenager is TOUGH. Being a mom period isn’t easy.  I want her to be her FULL self as a black Goddess in this sometimes cruel world.  To give her space to be herself and to speak up and often because again this world may only always want to hear what she has to say. Sometimes as a mom/ bonus mom I feel like I can never get it right. I chose to work from home almost two years ago cause I wanted to be more PRESENT.  I wanted to do a new thing as God was (is) working a new thing in me daily.  Not that I wasn’t present working in corporate America but those stresses were messing with my mental health. I wanted to be able to be accessible at a drop of a dime. Make every game, practice, awards dinner, midday event be home at a decent time and before we did it all over again the next day all the things I missed or had to go through hoops just to get time off to be there for my kids. Feeling like I had to choose.  

It was a hard decision to go from two solid incomes to 1 and new entrepreneur sometimes winging it, sometimes winning, sometimes over it!  I had to believe in myself and my reason why. You’re looking at two of my reasons before you!  

Sometimes people just don’t want to believe in themselves. They’re okay with not being ok because they’re so use to it or it’s all they know. It’s what they saw their momma do or the father or aunties and I didn’t want that for my kids or myself.  I want my kids to know working hard looks different for everyone. To make hard choices and take risks to never live a life with regrets. 

Everyday I wake up and thank God for a new day, ask for clarity, strength, courage and willingness to show up. To be a beckon of light. To be a word, confirmation, inspiration, motivation. 

An example not to settle, not to give up, to be a reflection of what by faith looks like.